We Are Not Alone

Today was a bad day. I had the day off and stayed in bed all morning and took care of some laundry. While a load was going I just randomly started feeling sad. I began to miss my family, they live 12 hours away and I don't see them very often. I started to feel very lonely and eventually I became apathetic. I didn't care about anything or anybody. I started feeling suicidal thinking about how nobody would care if I just disappeared. Me being apathetic is worse than me being depressed. I eventually became so exhausted that I crashed. I didn't start to feel better till a couple hours after my husband came home from work.I ended up finding a song called “Where You Belong” by Kari Kimmel. It really touched me and got me thinking about some things.... (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GfCUQtTttoQ)

If you're feeling down or weak
You can always count on me
I will always pick you up
Nothing's ever gonna change
Nothing's gettin' in my way
I will always hold you up

Anything
Come what may
Don't look back forget yesterday
Forget yesterday

[Chorus:]
It's not where you come from
It's where you belong
Nothin' I would trade
I wouldn't have it any other way
You're surrounded
By love and you're wanted
So never feel alone
You are home with me
Right where you belong

I know sometimes you're feeling lost
It's hard to find your place in it all
But you don't have to fear
Even when you mess up
You always got my love
I'm always right here
Oh, cause

Anything
Come what may
Don't look back forget yesterday
Forget yesterday 

It's not where you come from
It's where you belong
Nothin' I would trade
I wouldn't have it any other way
You're surrounded
By love and you're wanted
So never feel alone
You are home with me
Right where you belong

Oooo Oooo (Oooo)
Don't matter where you've been
Oooo Oooo (Oooo)
You're here for a reason

Oooo Oooo (Oooo)
Nooo

It's not where you come from
It's where you belong
Nothin' I would trade
I wouldn't have it any other way
You're surrounded
By love and you're wanted
So never feel alone
You are home with me
Right where you belong

At first when I listened to it I pictured my husband singing it.... but as I continued to listen I began to hear somebody else.... my Heavenly Father. I'm a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and we believe god to be our Father. I've been having some problems with my faith recently, and have been trying to figure everything out. While listening to this song and picturing him singing to me really got to me. Especially when the song says “ I know sometimes you're feeling lost. It's hard to find your place in it all. But you don't have to fear. Even when you mess up. You always got my love. I'm always right here.” I also made me think of another song that me and my husband sang in church called “Be Still” by Hillary Weeks. Its a duet and it starts with the girl singing …. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GlgR_6e2-FI)

Another day
I'll try again
But can you tell me
Will the hurting ever end?
I've been taught
And I believe
But it's been awhile
Since I've been on my knees
But I need you by my side
I don't have the strength
To make it on my own
And Lord, do you hear my prayer
How soon will you answer me? 

(then the male sings)

I know you're weary
I know you've had all you can bear
And now you ask of me on bended knee
I promise I'll be there
I've watched you struggle
Yet I can see how much you've grown
Child, could you feel my power in your darkest hour?
You were not alone
Be still and know that I am God
I'm by your side
Whom shall you fear
I'll give you strength my child
I am here
Be still and know that I am God
And there's no prayer
That I don't hear
Lift up your head
My child
I am here

It's been a while since I've prayed, and I think I'm finally ready to do it again. I've been scared too because I've been viewing god as this all powerful being who strikes down the wicked. But that's not who he is. He's my Heavenly Father and I'm his child, and that is exactly how he views me. I've been trying to fight off my depression either by myself or with medication. But I can't do that anymore, I realize that I need to turn to him because through him I can know that I will never be alone. Because he loves me, and all of us, more than anybody on this earth could possibly love us. I understand that a lot of you reading this may not be religious, and that's fine. But I know that god is there and that he loves you. Because you are his child. I love this song called “Walk Tall” by Jamie Glenn. (you can change the word daughter to son if you're a boy) (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHANOO2vq3E)

Right now I have a prayer deep within my heart,

A prayer for each of you there is a special part.

That you remember who you are and Him who lives above.

Please seek for Him and live His way; you’ll feel His love.

Chorus:

Walk tall, you’re a daughter, a child of God.

Be strong—please remember who you are.

Try to understand, You’re part of His great plan.

He’s closer than you know—reach up, He’ll take your hand.

Long before the time you can remember,

Our Father held you in His arms so tender.

Those loving arms released you as He sent you down to earth.

He said, “My child, I love you. Don’t forget your great worth.”

Walk tall, you’re a daughter, a child of God.

Be strong—please remember who you are.

Try to understand, You’re part of His great plan.

He’s closer than you know—reach up, He’ll take your hand.

This life on earth we knew would not be easy.

At times we lose our way—His plan we may not see.

But please remember always—please—that you are not alone.

He’ll take your hand. He loves you! He will guide you home.

Walk tall, you’re a daughter, a child of God.

Be strong—please remember who you are.

Try to understand, You’re part of His great plan.

He’s closer than you know—reach up, He’ll take your hand.

All these songs teach one thing.... that we are not alone. No matter how bad the day, no matter how hard the trial, no matter how bad we mess things up, WE ARE NOT ALONE!!!